I have already been focusing on a brand new creative project. A great deal of energy and enthusiasm being spent. Lots of productive time making new things. Bouncing my ideas off others in the coaching group. But each time I embark on a new journey of producing, I have found myself becoming angry.
How come this happen? Precisely what is this anger about? What is going on?
My mentor and I were discussing this. She wondered aloud this thought: "It sounds like the tender spots are where you stand angry"... yeah. Very tender. The anger is saying something.
Finding that it is not easy to hold a project picking anger all around, I desired to find a way to work "through" or "around" the anger. So, I distract myself with painting, stories, dancing... something creative, but more mundane and a bit mindless. This creative energy frees up my thoughts to ensure I could "trick" my anger into thinking We are busy along with other things.
After i try this I call it "spinning". Spinning jogs my memory in the stories with the spinning wheel where I can get busy creating (like the wool on the wheel). This paves the way to metaphor and takes me far from my have to "control" an undertaking.
When I began drawing this image... of a spinning wheel... I thought of "turning straw to gold". I had been reminded again from the story of Rumpelstilskin. You already know, usually the one... the millers daughter, the father says "she can spin straw into gold" to the king... and also the king would like to see this... and if she cannot, she will go to death... ? Then, a strange little man appears. He tells her they can spin straw into gold... but it will be at an amount to her.
I came across the storyline and browse several versions of computer. It resonated beside me. However, when i usually do, I could to logically "organize" the tale. This caused me to be more frustrated, when i wasn't seeing or feeling what this story was looking to figure out.
Therefore i went back to my "dream capture" work. I read the storyplot as if it were a dream I needed had. Then, I did so the subsequent:
Listed out all of the characters
Listed your "key words" in the story that resonated beside me
Re-read each word and wrote what that word meat if you ask me within my unique circumstances
And then... I began to notice what are the story was telling me. This is what I stumbled upon
The miscroscopic man (Rumplestilskin)=anger/creative fire/naming
The miller's daughter=rest/creativity/giving
Spnning wheel=creating/spinning/asking for help
The baby=creation (project, artwork... )
While each one of these "characters" comes with a independent role, All the characters create one "psyche" for me personally. Most of us have of such qualities within us.
To create something, it will require much energy... and much rest can also be needed. We should give of ourselves and request for help.
In the long run, your baby exists and we'll not cease. It is our "creation" and we're pleasantly surprised about what we make. Also, what must be done to get there.
What did I learn?
Until this story resonates when camping. Also, this story will repeat itself over and over as I continue to create, rest, other people and finish a project. Though Rumpelstilskin stomps himself in to the ground after the story, that little man will likely be back... followed by time, Let me know his name.
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